The cancer/ Heart Attack diaries – 31.10.15

Jesus Chris, what a week that was- I think I’ll need a darkened room or another heart attack to get away from everyone. I canny remember now if it was Monday or Tuesday I got out of Hospital – I’ve never had a minute to myself since. Don’t get me wrong- The support from everyone has been wonderful and fantastic [ like a Dolly Parton Bra ] but between friends and family visiting and the Hospital and officialdom phoning – it’s been non stop and I need a rest. I have the cold constantly and for a Fifteen minute spell today every time I blew my nose there was a scary amount of blood on the bog roll – it’s to do with the blood thinning tablets I’ve to take – but it can be a tad disconcerting, nevertheless to see blood and snotters. This spell check thing I’ve got doesn’t recognise ‘ snotters’ – and there’s a wee squiggly line under it – f–k it, though, it’s a guid Scot’s word. The chemo hair is here big time – it’s awfy thin – Boo Radley hair as I call it- and the combination of cancer and the Heart attack has played havoc with my appearance – not that it was anything special before all this shite kicked off – but, now I just look ill.  Hopefully, through time things will improve. I will obviously have good and bad days and I think this day was a bad day.